• 24Feb

    I’m sorry, Dan.  I’m failing you. 

    I watched you try so hard to avoid this particular pitfall and here I am, up to my neck in the mud.  You saw and felt the pain this could bring and you were determined that you would do better.  I didn’t think I had anything to fear.  That’s pride speaking.  Pride is a nasty, subtle beast that steals its way into the heart and mind of its victim and slowly penetrates to the very core and spreads it’s venom in ever widening circles. 

    But for the grace of God, there go I. 

    Why aren’t you here to snap me out of this and push me on?

     

    We’ve heard “pride comes before a fall”

    And that’s the reason why,

    When proud folks fall flat on their face,

    They’re served a “humble pie.”

    Its taste is bitter on the tongue,

    And brings tears to the eyes,

    But once accepted and digested,

    It makes the eater wise!

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  • 25Jan

    I know the Bible says that we are to meditate on the Scriptures day and night . . . I’m having a problem.  I can read a verse in the morning, apply it to my life, and think, “that is so neat!  I need to meditate on that today.”  But within half an hour I can’t even remember the concept much less the verse.  There are so many things bombarding me at any given point throughout the day that remembering things almost requires more work than my laundry room.

    I do better when I write things down, but then I have little notes all over everywhere and they are never where they need to be when I need to read them.  Or I have a note here and a note there, but I forgot about the note over there and so I’m missing part of the information needed for that decision . . . and I’m sure you get the gist.  I’m thinking I need to get a ‘brain’ like my Dad’s.  He’s got a PDA he takes with him EVERYWHERE.  We tease him about losing his brain if his PDA is too far away, but I’m beginning to think that having a brain on the outside of my head could actually be useful since the brain on the inside of my head seems to be having some trouble functioning.

    No comments from the peanut gallery please.  =)  I’m sick again and tired.  I have an excuse.  =)

  • 05Dec

    Dassy (4) asked me the other day

    “Mommy, When are you going to die?”

    I looked at her funny, like-where did this come from?

    “Are you going to have another birthday?”

    I told her my birthday was after Caleb’s.

    And then she finishes up her train of thought with, “I want to go live with someone else now.”

    So there you have it.  My 4 year old is trying to kill me off already.  She’s tired of living with me so she wants me to die so that she can go live with someone else.   I’d be hurt, but I’m considering the source and I figure that if I can just get the rest of the kids to agree with her that there won’t be anything else keeping me here.  (That’s “Longing” speaking, not “Depression”, just for the record.)

     

    This is my Dad’s take on the idea of me dying.  =)

    You must file a permission form 3 years in advance of said action and the review process is anticipated to be equally long.  Hence, you are looking at a minimum of 6 years before ‘right of death’ privileges can be processed.  And then you can’t be sure you will receive approval of your intention to die.

    But not everyone is comfortable with the thought of dying.  It is a fact of life, and if you know Jesus like I do then it’s nothing to worry about.  If you don’t know my Saviour, then PLEASE ask.  It’s SO simple and SO worth it!!!!!  Don’t wait until it’s too late.  Give your family and friends the chance to see you again.

  • 04Nov

    house

    Here are slide shows prepared for the open house back in July. They show the house from planning through to near completion. Look at each short slideshow or else skip to the Condensed Slide Show at the end of the list.

    01 Introduction
    02 Preparation and Well
    03 Excavation & foundation
    04 First story
    05 Second story and roof frame
    06 Roof sheeted
    07 Basement
    08 Garage
    09 Rough plumbing & electrical
    10 insulation & drywall
    11 siding & sidewalks
    12 stuff from WV
    13 Interior finishing
    14 Sewer System
    15 Driveway
    17 Lawn Seeding
    18 Other things
    19 Starting to look finished
    20 Condensed Slide Show (You don’t need to watch this one if you’ve seen all the others.)

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  • 07Jul

    July 4, 2009

    I find myself somewhat restless in spirit tonight.  This is a day that holds quite a few memories for me and the kids.  The older ones all remember Daddy setting off fireworks in West Virginia.  Dan was something of a pyromaniac and loved to play with the fireworks.

    But it doesn’t seem to be the memories that are making me restless.  I am quite tired, so maybe a trip to my bed will help.  I just keep hearing the boom of distant fireworks echoing off the sides of the mountains around here. 

     

    I’ve been led to pray, but I’m not really sure what for.  This is our country’s birthday, but my prayers for my country, that I love with all my heart, are tainted with fear.  How bad will it get?  Am I going to be called upon to serve as a witness for my Lord in even more difficult times?

    The fear of my children’s futures is enough to almost make me turn tail and run.  It’s that fear of the unknown that we often avoid.  So I must focus on what is known.  I know my Lord loves me, and I know He knows it all and is in control.  It is enough.

     

    But enough fireworks for one night.  I need some sleep.

  • 21Apr

    I am so incredibly grouchy and emotionally sensitive today that I am almost afraid to write for fear of what will come out, but as a little mouse put it, “my public needs me.”  It is probably more likely that I need my public’s prayers.  The emotional strain must be starting to take it’s toll. 

    Sunday night I played a piece for special music that was very difficult to play. 

    I cried. 

    Monday I took the kids to Wal-Mart to get family photos and a three month picture of Caleb.  We used Dan’s jacket and hat as props. 

    I cried again. 

    Today I was already on edge and then I decided to go pick up a couple of groceries.  Maranatha (2) was quite tired and whined the whole way through the store, they all wanted to drive the cart, small aisles, small cart (only holds baby and one more and barely any groceries), too many kids and then to top it all off, Dassy (3) STEALS a lollipop from the store and tries to walk out the door!! 

    I did the only safe thing I could think of . . you guessed it . .

    I cried. 

    I did manage to hold it in till after Dassy got a partial scolding (we will finish that conversation later when Mom is a bit more rational and less inclined to do something drastic), and we were on our way home.

    Unfortunately, not once during those crying sessions have I felt comfortable just letting it all out.  So the emotions are still there boiling away, just waiting for me to lift the lid.  And it all just hurts so bad that I just keep putting the cork in the volcano and hoping that someone will turn off the heat so that I can deal with things when I am a little cooler.

  • 12Apr
    Here is the first load of block that Matthew and I unloaded for the garage.  There was one more load, but this one wore us out.  =)
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    Garage

    Garage

  • 20Mar

    I feel like I had lots to laugh about today.  I think I must have gotten a good nights sleep last night.  I don’t remember getting up to feed Caleb, but he was in my bed this morning so I must have slept through it.

    The kids had me rolling at one point.  I would love to tell you what I was laughing about . . I’m dying to tell someone . . but I don’t dare.  They had me blushing and laughing for more than half an hour.  It still makes me laugh and blush and it’s hours later.  The things they remember about their Dad. . .  Laughing

    We watched America’s Funniest Home Video’s tonight before bed and that gave me something to laugh about, too.  And I got an e-mail with church bulletin bloopers, too.  After the heaviness of the last two days, the light heartedness of today feels like taking the training weights off for the big race.  It won’t last, but it is nice to enjoy it.

    Honest, pure, carefree laughter in one of the best medicine’s I know.  I love to laugh.  I was SO wanting to pick up the phone, call Dan at work, and tell him what the kids said.  Better yet, wait till he got home and see if he blushed as bad as I did.

  • 10Mar

    I feel a cry coming on.
    First thought: Quick, find something to do to distract you.
    Second thought: Am I avoiding the grieving process? Is this going to warp me?
    Third thought: Why am I analyzing this? Go to bed and you’ll feel better in the morning.
    Fourth thought: I’m a nut case! The Lord sure does have a sense of humor to have created someone like me. Are He and Dan laughing at me up there?