“How amiable are thy tabernacles, O Lord of Hosts!” Ps 84:1-2, “My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the Lord: my heart and my flesh crieth out for the living God.”
I find my soul crying out more for leadership. I long for a man who will step in and lead this strange family of mine. Someone who is willing to accept and shoulder the man sized portion of burden that makes my shoulders ache (I slept on something wrong =).
I don’t necessarily feel like I’m struggling with the responsibility at this point in time. God has been doing just fine at taking care of us and giving me the option of a stress free life (if and when I’ll take it), but the longing is still there.
Ps. 84:5 “Blessed is the man whose strength is in thee; . .” The longing in my heart is great, but with the strength of the Lord I will stay strong, pure, and patient. Ha! It will have to be your strength for sure, Lord, ‘cause I don’t got it.
Ps. 84:11 “. . . no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.” My kids are wondering why You are withholding the good thing of a Daddy. I am assuming that at this point in time You have something better than good and that we just need to be patient and wait for it.
How often do I have a plan in mind that I am trying to work out that requires my kids patience and cooperation and their continual bugging and disobedience makes me throw up my hands in frustration and turn to plan B. How often do I tell them “Trust Mommy. You know she loves you and wants you to have fun. Trust me, You will like this. Patience, I’m trying to work something out here. Giving you details just confuses the issue. Trust me.”
So, God, today (since this is a daily task) I am going to trust that You will not withhold anything good from me and my family. I think that good would be a husband and father, but maybe You have something better in mind.