• 29Mar
    Categories: Grieving Comments: 4

    I am struggling with a heaviness of spirit today that threatens our peaceful existence. 

    Normally spring time is when my spirits are the brightest.  I love the freshness in the air, the feel of the energy starting to flow through every living thing.  I love to watch the romance blossoming all around me, I love to see the flowers peeking their heads up through the crusty dirt, and I love to feel the adventure in the air.

    But once again spring isn’t what I’ve been expecting.  It’s disconcerting–I didn’t think this would be something that would ever change.  Contrary to popular opinion☺, I seem to be getting older.  I can’t quite pick myself up and move on quite like I  used to.

    Ah, I probably just need to get some sleep and do some more journaling.

    It’s my third spring without Dan, Grandma’s first without Pappy.  Love is in the air in my household (two adopted girls, one dating, the other engaged).  It’s fun to watch and I wouldn’t miss it for anything, but some days it hurts. 

    While my other half has gone away at least the “Son” in my universe is still there for me to orbit around.  I am not without hope and purpose.  Feelings are superficial and can be overcome.  The reality is that I am loved by the Giver of Love and I am on the Great Adventure of following Him.

4 Comments to Heavy Spring

  • Dear Liisa,
    So sorry you are having struggles again. They don’t always leave just because winter is over. I’m thankful you live close to your family — I understand your Mother is walking the same path as you are following. Maybe on a good day you will be able to encourage her. It is never easy, whether you are younger or older.

    Our news is filled with the various reports of the flooding in various places around the country, but even though our golf course retained an unusual amount of water after melting time, we here in town are still carrying on normally.

    I have friends in Memphis who will be concerned about the flooding there.
    Actually they live just across the border in the next state, but he teaches in the Bible Institute in Memphis –when he is well. He has been ill for the past few weeks, and I haven’t heard recently how he is.

    There is flooding in some places in Alberta, but not right here. There are so many places across the country that are in difficulty. I am praying for them.

    Blessings, as you face a new day. May the sun shine brightly in the sky and may the Son shine in your heart.

    Love, Gram E.