• 03Feb

    I had a moment of panic today that made me rethink my jealousy of Dan.  I looked at the kids running around me, the runny noses, the diaper that needs changed, the fact that they are always hungry (when there isn’t real food to eat), the obvious desire for attention, and noted the loneliness that comes when there is only one adult in the house and I realized something.  Those kids have no one else.

    I can’t do the heaven thing yet!!  These kids need me!  The idea of putting them into someone else’s care makes my heart ache.  At least Dan had the comfort of knowing they still had me.  I know my kids would be well loved and cared for if something happened to me, but kids NEED their parents. 

    This is where I’m needed and where God wants me.  Who am I to complain? 

    So maybe I’ve gotten through another part of the grieving process?  The anger and jealousy . . .

3 Comments to Needed Here

  • Yes, you are needed and wanted. Just keep doing the great job that you are doing and things will fall into place with time. So keep moving through that grieving process and the cares will seem less with time. Oh, and just in case you were wondering the diaper stage doesn’t last forever. 🙂 Love you all

  • Yes, you are needed and loved by your children. I’ve been praying for you a lot.
    God has given us many promises in His Word. Over the last couple of weeks he has impressed Psalm 18:30 on my heart and it is so applicable every day. God has a perfect plan.
    Stay in God’s Word and pray out to him in your needs. John 15:7.

  • Everyday you meet the needs of your household. Everyday will be one more day the Lord will tell you well done! You have a large responsibility but you are holding up so well. I am from your MOPS in Clarksburg and we as a family still pray and care deeply for you and your family! Blessings to you my friend!!

    God bless
    Heather Laurie
    http://www.specialneedshomeschooling.com