Had another disturbing phone call the other day. Just a reminder of my loss and a smack of reality. It’s easier when I just pretend that it never happened. Somehow all these kids just appeared out of thin air and my life consists of only the present. I don’t understand why people wouldn’t want there to be a ‘Creator’ that they can dump all their problems on and just keep going. Why would you want to carry everything yourself? If I have to do all the cleaning . . yeah, it gets done to my specifications, but think of all the fun I could be having instead if I let the kids help get the work done (or hire someone =)
Another reality smack occurred when I stood on our front porch and waved goodbye to my boys as they headed off for their ‘first’ day of work. They are getting older. They aren’t babies any more, and if I’m smart I’ll learn how to let go before they ask. Sigh.
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January 17th, 2010 at 2:15 am
Letting go a bit at a time does make it easier later. Someone helped me to learn how to start that years ago. Today when my “baby” now almost 20 left for the air force I was able to stay together better than I thought possible because of starting to let go when he was young. Every little bit of letting go helps along the way. Will, pray you can be strong for that. Love you.
January 17th, 2010 at 2:48 pm
Someone else is getting older, too. Happy birthday, Liisa! You are loved!
January 18th, 2010 at 10:01 am
It wasn’t our Happy Birthday phone call was it? The kids might have been on the wrong notes:)
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:22 pm
Hey! I know this is a bit late, but I just regained my internet connection. (PRAISE GOD!!)
Happy Birthday!
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