• 19Jan

    Another stage.

    I find myself amazed at the intensity of this particular feeling.  I’m not a social bug by any stretch of the imagination.  I can get all hyped up, be the life of the party, and have a great time doing it, but it only lasts for a couple hours.  Then I’m exhausted.  (I can spend long stretches with people if intense emotion isn’t involved.)

    I have a loner streak that I’m quite comfortable with.  I’ve gone weeks with my only social interaction being who I see as I round up the kids on our way to and from church (and the occasional conversation between services).  But lately . . .

    I feel like I haven’t met anyone new or stretched my conversation skills since, I don’t know, . . last August?  Going shopping doesn’t cut it.  Guess it’s time to try something new. 

    Oh Dan.  Why don’t you talk to me?  I haven’t had a good discussion on politics, public schools, engineering, space, or the latest invention in . .  forever.  I knew we would have problems when you quit talking to me.

6 Comments to Loneliness

  • We just read this as a family and it seems to fit…

    Mark 8:1-9 (JE paraphrase)
    Jesus, seeing those that had followed him and continued seeking him beyond the limits of their physical supply, had compassion on them. He felt their infirmity and cared; he had been there before. (Heb 4:15) He responded by taking what ridiculously little they had in the face of monumental need and started meeting individual needs. Jesus met the needs so completely that there was enough for all and seven baskets left over, a perfect surplus.

    We’ll be praying that you will continue to follow, feel his compassion, understand his care, experience his perfect strength in weakness.

    For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.
    Psa. 103:14

  • I can relate in a very small way to the way you are feeling – but not really completely. Being a missionary in another country when you haven’t quite learned the language has many of the same effects – especially when you are single. It seems very lonely at times with the only conversations being very basic and sometimes feeling trivial, and you are waiting until you can learn this new language so you can learn to communicate again. It must feel the same way for you – like you are having to learn to speak a new language – or just relearn how to communicate on another level. I will be praying for you. Remember God is always with us – and even when we can’t remember the words “the Spirit itself maketh intersession for us.” God bless you.

  • I remember my mom saying how she missed adult conversation. As a child I didn’t really see how my conversation didn’t fill the need. Now it’s so obvious. It’s hard to replace Danny. I am sorry you are lonely.

  • Hmmm, I just saw an article about an ocean based space canon to launch supplies into space on the cheap. I think that would have got him talking for at least an hour. I know I don’t have that kind of time though, and even if I did, I doubt it would help. Besides, you’re not reading this comment any more, you zoned out after the first dozen words I’m almost sure of it. 🙂

  • Like Gemma, I relate in a small way by being home with my kids in a “strange” land (Indiana) where I know no one. I had to force myself to leave the house with the kids in tow and purposely go looking for adult humans. Storytime at the library has helped, but mainly inviting other moms over to my house with their kids during the day has been the biggest improvement for me.