• 09Sep

    I feel pretty.  I just had a nice long bubble bath with no interruptions.  I found a nice flowy dress to wear that’s comfortable and makes my hips look great (hides the belly a bit, too).  I feel clean, refreshed, . . . hmmm . . I’m guessing the kids aren’t going to appreciate this – at least not as much as Dan would have.  =)

    I’m not much for keeping up with fashion, or spending hours on how I look, but I’ve always felt that it was important to look nice or at least neat (both of which have had to be flexible with multiple children).  When Dan died I felt like I lost a lot of my motivation.  I’ve been making sure that I’m dressed appropriately and nicely, but like so many other things I felt like my enthusiasm was swallowed up in the pool of confusion that is only now starting to settle down.

    I’ve been noticing a change in that lately.  I’m not like a teenager out to catch a guy or anything (that’s something of a joke with 7 kids), but there seems to be a new pleasure, a certain thrill in knowing that I look good. 

    I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!  My pessimism says “I’ll be looking the other way tomorrow and won’t be able to see the light”, or “the light sure doesn’t seem very bright”, but my hope in the Lord says the light will shine through, and it will be BRIGHT!!!  I will have a happy day without storm clouds darkening the skies.  If nothing else there is always Heaven where I will be Truly Beautiful.

    Psalm 27:1

    The Lord is MY LIGHT and my salvation; whom shall I fear?

    The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

6 Comments to My Light

  • Dear Liisa,

    How wonderful it is to hear these words from you. I too, know how hard it can be to keep yourself neat and tidy, and I have less than half of the number of children that you have.

    I hope your time alone in the tub, was enjoyable, I know those always make me feel wonderful too.

    I feel so blessed to have been able to listen to your journey over the last 10 months. Keep the updates coming, thank you for sharing, and keep up being YOU !

    Hugs for you and all of the children.

    Michelle for the Kotyk Crew xoxo

  • It is so WONDERFUL to hear you talking positively. You have hope, expectations, and enthusiasim — at least for a little while. I hope it will last. Bubble bath often.
    if that’s what is does to you. I know that’s not easy, but you’ve found a time of day when you can relax and enjoy the warm water and bubbles. Great!!!
    You are in our prayers — and God is sustaining you. Praise to Him. Love, Gram E

  • Bubble baths are relaxing. Thanks for the reminder that when I put a small amount of effort into “looking pretty” I feel “pretty”.

    Our prayers continue.

  • Praying for more and more moments like these, and that the light at the end of the tunnel will continue to brighten.