I hang up the phone. It hurts to remember and a wail is torn from my throat as I realize anew that I am/was helpless to protect the one I love. There was so much we didn’t know . . .
I remember the peace we felt going in to the surgery, I see the way God hid bits and pieces of information from us, I marvel at the many choices that got us to that point, and I wonder, “and who knoweth whether thou art come to the kingdom for such a time as this? Esther 4:14” Somehow I must hang on tight to God’s sovereignty and trust His love for me.
(Excerpts from Psalm 102)
Hear my prayer, O Lord, and let my cry come unto thee.
Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily.
For my days are consumed like smoke, and my bones are burned as an hearth.
My heart is smitten, and withered like grass; so that I forget to eat my bread.
By reason of the voice of my groaning my bones cleave to my skin.
My days are like a shadow that declineth; and I am withered like grass.
But thou, O Lord, shalt endure for ever; and thy remembrance unto all generations.
He will regard the prayer of the destitute, and not despise their prayer.
This shall be written for the generation to come: and the people which shall be created shall praise the Lord.
2 Responses
August 25th, 2009 at 9:37 pm
But Thou, o Lord, shalt endure for ever…. You know the way that I take……
I will lean hard on You… You will comfort me, guide me, sustain me… through every situation I have to face.
Help me to focus on You. Help me to know how to care for the children well. I look to You for your help daily.
I thank You, Lord, in anticipation of Your revealing your love to me. -Liisa.
Lovingly sent by Gramma Ewing.
August 26th, 2009 at 3:48 am
Thank-you for posting those verses. Make sure they are posted in your heart as well.
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