Remembering Dan

• Upstairs painted

  02May
  Categories: Family Updates Comments: 2

  We got the upstairs painted!!  There were about 20 volunteers helping today and they made quick work of all that .  It’s exciting to see the progress being made.  I think I’m going to love that laundry room.  I’ll try to get pictures out soon.

• Emotionless

  02May
  Categories: Grieving Comments: 5

  5-1-09

  It has been a rough week for me emotionally.  I have been struggling with an emptiness, a vagueness that makes it difficult to understand life as a whole.  I’ve spent the better part of two days trying to come up with the words to try to explain it to you.

  I can remember getting up in the morning, especially in the spring, and being excited about what the day had in store for me.  I can remember feeling peace and contentment with my life.  I can remember the rewarding feeling of service – being able to help someone and seeing the gratitude in their eyes or at least just knowing that you did the right thing.  I can remember a determination to beat Satan at his games – a desire to win the battles.  I remember a zest for life,  I can remember feeling emotion at the thought of cleaning the bathroom AGAIN.

  The best way to explain the emotions of the last few days is to tell you that I didn’t feel any of that.  I was just empty.