• 06Apr

    The words are not coming easy tonight.  There is much to share, I am just too worn out to formulate the words needed to convey the thoughts and emotions that I am dealing with. 

    I ate supper alone tonight.  I hate eating alone.  Usually I avoid the feeling of eating alone by eating while standing (also makes it easier to keep an eye on kids), or eating on the run.  Tonight staying upright seems to be an issue.

    Caleb is eating cereal at three months.  The doc’s recommend waiting till 6 mo, I tend to think the mother knows best and most of my kids were eating by 4 months, but Caleb is DEMANDING cereal.  He’s not supposed to be that big!  I am afraid that I must not be providing enough nutrition for the both of us, hence the desire for real food (if you can call that rice stuff “real”).  Don’t know if there are some feelings of guilt there that I’m fighting or if I am just too tired . . .

    But anyway, I need to move on to other things so I guess I will need save some of my other thoughts for later.

1 Comment to Tired

  • Dear Liisa,
    You are never alone.

    “Listen to Me, O house of Jacob, and all the remnant of the house of Israel, You who have been borne by Me from birth, and have been carried from the womb; even to your old age, I shall be the same, and even to your graying years I shall bear you! I have done it, and I shall carry you, and I shall bear you, and I shall deliver you.” Isaiah 46:3,4

    “For your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name, and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth he is called. . .This is like the days of Noah to me. As I swore that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth, so I have sworn that I will not be angry with you and will not rebuke you. For the mountains may depart and the hills be removed, but my steadfast love shall not depart from you, and my covenant of peace shall not be removed, says the Lord, who has compassion on you. . .All your children shall be taught by the Lord, and great shall be the peace of your children.” (From Isaiah 54 – read the whole chapter!)

    I repeat – you are not alone. Run to Him!

    Love and prayers.