• 17Jan

    Today is my birthday.   I woke up crying.  I realized that I am a widow at the ripe old age of thirty.  This birthday was something that I was not looking forward to . . for quite some time now.  Now I know why.  I’ve found out a few things I didn’t want to know today.  I got a card from Benjamin and it said, “I love you, Mom.  I miss Dad.”  I can’t focus.  I’m crying at the drop of a hat (and those are being dropped frequently as the kids go in and out playing in the snow in minus ten degree weather!).  So, frankly, it’s been a lousy day.  It’s your fault, Dan.

    I was hoping that Dan would be able to take some of the older kids shopping and they could surprise me with a birthday present this year.  Usually Dan and I just take some time to ourselves and go on a date, but I was hoping the kids would be able to get a bit more involved this year.  Instead I have the kids a little bit more involved and Dan not involved at all.  He’s slackin’ again.

8 Comments to Disappointed in Dan

  • Dear Liisa,
    I just wnat to say Happy 30th Birthday! We are praying for you and the children. I just thought you should know that my Benjamin enjoyed listening to your Benjamin read him a book when we brought Suanna to see you. We would enjoy getting together with you again.

  • Lisa,
    Happy Birthday. What a hard day. Keep your chin up and keep on going. Today is not forever and neither is tomorrow. Your love for God, Dan and your children is forever and is what will one day unite you eternally in the land of no sorrow.

  • I’m praying for you today, Liisa. For some reason, birthdays that mark a decade are much harder than the rest.

    A friend of mine who recently lost her 24 yr old son, told me that when she lies her head on her pillow she closes her eyes and senses the breast of God under her cheek, holding her and comforting her. I pray you will feel the presence of El Shaddai with you too.

    Sending love,
    Rosey Dow

  • I did not turn my computer on yesterday but wish you a happy non-birthday today. When I turned 40 I decided that it was up to me to rejoice in those big milestones so I threw a party for myself. No one attending was allowed to talk of the sad things in my life only the good. It was a very special day. Celebrate your new decade of life. A time to build special mommy memories with your little ones and to see them grow and begin so many exciting new parts of their lives. These are your special years. They are for you and you alone. Cherish each new achievement you make and each one your children make. Don’t be too hard on yourself, just enjoy. You have permission to enjoy life as you are ready. This year may seem sad, but you in your sadness have blessed us in ways we could not imagine. I believe in who you are and who you are becoming. You are one of the most beautiful people I know. Love you.

  • I am so sorry that this birthday sucked for you. God’s mercies are new EVERY morning. I claim that promise for you.

  • Happy Birthday! – Happy Birthday!- Happy Birthday! I didn’t know.
    I also have my birthday on this day and it was different than expected.
    I’ve been saving some broccoli to send you.

  • HAPPY BIRTHDAY Lisa ! Although We have never met I am a friend of Dans and a good friend of the Ewing family. Just want you to know that we are praying for you and the kids daily. May God bless you and I know he will.

  • Hey Liis, I’m sorry Dan wasn’t there to spend the day with you. I’m sorry your hopes for the day couldn’t be. I’m sorry for the pain and the disappointment. I wish more than anything that I could come and put my arms around you. I’d tell you to go to sleep, and I’ll take care of the kiddos for a while, and then when you’re feeling more rested, they could come snuggle in bed with you and giggle together. We could all build a snowman and give him a crazy face. Or two snowmen and make them in the middle of a snowball fight. We could give one a cup of hot cocoa… but that might be dangerous for the poor guy! Anyway, I love you!